something is missing

as i get my work done, im looking for something else, as i try something new and i make headway, im missing someone aling the way. As i step away from it, pause, or finish it up, its incomplete, and i know i have a list of tasks to get back to but there is still one im trying to figure out that i cant tell is there.

It must be near, but i have no vision, no sight, no thought, and its not on the tip of my tongue. Im lost in what to do next so i look through all of my social media and messaging systems to determine if what im doing is working. Its the progressive constant check of evaluation to determine if my outputs are resulting in the procotol that i was oping to recieve if the protocol i thought i had been following was working

so far today it is not. i have not recieved an abundance of messages of people requesting help for me to get more incoming work to work on.

the system is vague, the answers are not appearing so im not seeing clear direction, but progress is progression and im still working on it and actually currently working inside the vacuum of what im supposed to be working on right now, and im being drawn into the portal of the direction of work that im supposed to be doing so if the actions continue in a pattern i should have accumulated enough material and content by the timeframe allowed and/or created as a byproduct of my own actions and it should appear

however by the time i reach it, i feel that it will be too late and the people and objects i want to take advances enheightened advantage of will be gone and slipped out of my finger tips and i will have never been able to take full advantage or get a full grasp of what was there and available for me, so i will forever be lost and misled, to the true promises of the imagination land that drove me to keep working in that direction, but if im in a different place or a place with more things and more possibilities then all the work is worth it, theoretically

I hope i hit checkpoints of validation or point of happiness and excitement with no concern along the way of leaving incomplete work left behind, because so far there is a lot, and im building a system of wishy washy uncertainty for people to look through after ive finished it and left it behind.

Hoping they see more value in it than what i expected to have created before i finished looking at it

however it is okay if nobody ever sees it, because if one person sees it besides me, or even if i see it in myself and i grow and get shaped in a direction because of it then i can value that direction as a progression of the work that i spent my time in, and even though it was not complete to the best of my ability, it was effort, and time and attention, and i nor that person could afford to absorb everything out of it anyways so 1% here, and 5% there, and 95% absorbed without my direct attention is invalidatable.

unmeasurable results are hard to follow and track and large institutions probably care a whole lot about all that work getting done so the protocol is to create a machine of a human to get it complete to the documentable status of protocol and procedure, and make that small portion their entire priority to look over this one subset of materials and continue to make sure it is up to date, and complete, and if anything else similar comes through that appears to have the ability to use your attention then put your attention into it, otherwise it is a lost cause that will not get enough attention to survive

however if someone is always in that position, getting that work done, then the work get done and it will be considered valuable.

If the work is not completely altered in a format that is desirable then it will not get used, it will not get blessed upon and it will go into the waste land of space and time of something that took up someones short term brain space, and took them time but never made it outside of that realm.

similar to the boat or CD you find in someones basement or in the room of a cruise ship cabinet drawer in the bottom of the ocean. Not to work anymore of get revised or have access to because it is incompatible to the next person that came through and saw it left abandoned there or to never be found at all as the highest likelihood and/or possibility

then for it to get connected back to you is an even bigger challenge, so the most that will come of it if it does not get worked on from a production company standpoint is that somebody will drive through someday and have the thought of "that was abandoned" rather than being rehabbed, or complete or finished.

it is not going to be able to be continued or reused and that is sad and disappointing in their eyes to see another thing like that

so under that conditions do you leave things. Up to what standards do you hope that people find your things, and what outcome do you want people to recieve from looking at your things.